back from cutting my hair, my masterpieces were came when I was under influence, and it’s proven once again. Okay where do we left off? oh, waiting..
Yeah, listening to these songs, I think it’s like a time machine. It leads you back to where you’ve wanted. For example, I’m listening to Everything is Made in China. It reminds me in my creative days, even jaywalking could create a what I’ve called an art. Maybe some of you disagree, but it involved feelings. For me, My photos hold have some magical feelings in it. Romantic feelings that you couldn’t afford anywhere else and you just can get it from me.
Yeah, because I want to impress that one person. A Russian in Germany. A Russian in Liverpool. I’ve even thinking about going to Liverpool. And when he didn’t got internet access, I was literally dying, that was 2 years ago. And I was listening to a Russian musician called Sergej Babkin, and one thing I hate about shuffle is, it brings your mood upside down. It played Zaberi. And I tell you, it’s not a cheerful music. Though I don’t have any idea of what it means, but it sounds sad.
Forward 3 years later, turned out we have mutual feelings towards each other. But I don’t want to be the clingy personality that I was. So i just keep it to myself. He is my safe zone. He always there when I was down. And also the other way around. No matter how many times I fall for other person, in the end I always ended up running to him. I don’t believe in marriage, but if marriage is a “home” then one thing for sure, I would marry him. Because he’s always the home. The place that I always come home to. No matter how far the journey I was in. And surprisingly, he is too.
You know what lyrics represents best of the situation of him and I?
With every word i live again
Through the eyes of another
We’ll meet at night wet from the rain
And surprise each other
With how we take away the pain.I don’t know those eyes
But i see beauty there always
I know it’s wrong to love you from afarYou recognize my pain
No matter how far we’ve travelled, we always looking for each other in the end. I don’t know if it’s just me, but seems like he is too.
I just wish he is here right now.
